So in the last post I wrote about how I feel like I am living half of a life and I thought I would elaborate on that a little bit (or a lot).
For the last year or so, we have been doing everything we can think of to make a move (if only part time) to Minnesota. Several times we thought we were close or on the right track and then it would be another big fat no. Time after time and circumstance after circumstance. We can not currently get financing in Minnesota due to being self employed and needing to show more income on 2 yrs worth of taxes.
In the mean time, we've been dealing with life here where we are. This house was never supposed to be a permanent housing solution, it's what we could immediately afford to get out of an expensive apartment in the city. It's barely 1000 square ft, has no garage, and we have Grant's office in here and we homeschool. There is no where for me to have a sewing area, no space for company, no space for teaching (we school on the couch), and currently a ripped up kitchen floor which means the living room is now the living room/school room/dining room/part kitchen etc. Don't get me wrong. I know I am blessed to have a home at all...but there is a nagging constant ache in my heart that says I could do so much more if I just had the space. And it won't go away.
The market here is ridiculously cheap. Some of the foreclosures (remember this is a vacation town, so lots of second homes being let go) are literally at a small % of their original list price. Meaning you can get a $450,000 home for $150,000.
We've come to the conclusion that we can't leave this town right now. Grant's work continues to increase here, even as he encourages them to cut back. As I mourned the loss of being able to move and help in Minnesota, I felt God saying "it's not a life sentence, it's just for right now, I need you here". Okay Lord, if you need me here I'll stay but please make a way for us to gain some space so I can function!
I don't understand loans, finances, transfers, big numbers, etc very well, but so far it is looking like we will be able to basically trade this house for a bigger place without financial burden. If this house doesn't sell, we will rent it out and deal with it that way. So far.
And when the market recovers we should be able to sell the larger place at a profit and hopefully at that point God will say yes, you can go now. This is my hope anyway. The place we looked at today has space for a combo school and craft room, an office for Grant, a garage, and a spare room. A real kitchen, and a large living room. I'm praying this is it because if it's not then I give up trying to find an answer to this space/location issue we've been fighting for so long. It's quite literally mentally exhausting.